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Wednesday Morning

Sometimes I look at my to-do list and I become so freaked out that I get absolutely paralyzed. This is problematical, because you can waste a ton of time saying "Oh my God, I have so much to do!" and not actually doing anything. Throw in the fact that there are many distracting external events in the world, and woo hoo, this is not good.

On the other hand, sometimes I'm not very realistic about how much can be accomplished in any one day. Days where I actually accomplish a significant amount of work don't seem to count when I stack them up against how much remains to be done.

Add to this the fact that I'm burnt out, and don't have a viable career alternative that will pay me what I'm earning right now, and it is a recipe for frustration. It's funny how writing that all out actually makes me feel better, and I hear in my head the advice I'd give other people (usually directly before being told I'm a spectacularly nasty, insensitive asshole): be grateful you have work, take it one step at a time, and do what you can, because you can't do more than that.

So I hit the reset button with a hammer, and move on. The fact that I'm devoting hours of my life writing silly things that are ultimately without meaning allows me to put food on the table, clothes on the backs, and new shingles on the roof. These are not small things. Meaning can't wait forever, but meaning can wait today. Onward, upward, forward, y'all.


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Apr. 17th, 2013 01:32 pm (UTC)
I know this isn't what you're talking about, but Robert Benchley wrote about how much one can get done by avoiding doing something else. Decide that you absolutely must do the ironing, and you find yourself doing the dishes and answering letters to avoid it. :)
Apr. 17th, 2013 02:19 pm (UTC)
I just came up with a time management program that I'm testing out. It's based on D&D turn actions. In a given regular evening, I'm limited to 2 standard actions (things taking over five minutes but less than 30) and 4 minor actions (things taking under five minutes.

I get things done but don't feel stressed. So far it's working out. I'm making it up as I go along. :)

I hope you find something that works for you!
Apr. 17th, 2013 03:07 pm (UTC)
You know I really needed to hear this today. Sometimes knowing that I'm not the only one who does stuff like this is a comfort. But then again you may have already read last nights freakout :)

Apr. 17th, 2013 05:12 pm (UTC)
And that is pretty much what I tell myself every day, these days.
Apr. 18th, 2013 01:19 am (UTC)
I write down a few notes on what I did every day in my planner. Reminds me that I *am* actually getting things done, even though it feels like I am not.
Apr. 18th, 2013 05:05 am (UTC)
At some level -- keyboarding is keyboarding. Punctuation is punctuation. Fingers are getting or maintaining useful habits.
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